I Didn’t Go Last Night…
So… I didn’t go last night. I didn’t go and see The Director. We kinda talked last night and we kinda talked some more this morning. I don’t really know where we’re at. I do know this though – this is...
View ArticleOperation: Nice Girl
*I should have posted this on Sunday 8th November but I’m a bad blogger… It’s been such a long time since I blogged or at least it feels like that. It’s all been a bit nuts. I don’t even know where I...
View ArticleSomeone New Got In Touch
Erm…. So Someone New sent me a message last night. On Instagram too, bizarrely. I don’t know why he messaged me on there, I don’t think we’ve ever sent each other a message on there before. I didn’t...
View ArticleFlatlined. Do Not Resuscitate?
The Director and I are pretty much over but I don’t know how to tell him. That’s pretty much the long and short of it. We’ve barely spoken the last couple of days. In fact we’ve sent no more than ten...
View ArticleTake It or Leave It?
FUUUUUUUCK! I FINALLY plucked up some balls to tell The Director what I wanted to say to him and what did he go and do? He went and fought for me. A lot harder than I’d actually given him credit for....
View ArticleTWAT!
I’m such a cunt. Sorry for the expletives but I might as well set the tone nice and early. There I was tapping out a few hundred words of how I was stuck in the middle of two men – The Director and The...
View ArticleClosing Chapter Director
Wow… I woke up to an ANGRY man. It seems I’ve upset The Director. What a shame. I’m angry too. In fact, I win the angry battle. I had so many things I wanted to say to his shitty 8am rebuttal but...
View ArticleI Need Drug Money & a Pregnancy Test
Yesterday was a shit day. I broke up with The Director. I was sick the entire day. I felt very sorry for myself. More annoyed by the breakup than I thought I would be and a little more hurt than I gave...
View ArticleTaking My Own Advice
Right… I’m apparently having a hard time getting over the whole Director situation. For a guy I didn’t see that often, talk to much or was with for very long, he seems to have made quite the impact....
View ArticleNegative: Not Pregnant
When I looked at that pregnancy test the other day and read the negative result, a huge part of me was one hundred percent relieved. Relieved that I hadn’t found out I was up the duff just 24 hours...
View ArticleRelapse
I made a boo-boo. Well, not so much a boo-boo as a huge fucking error of judgement. I text The Director. After 16 days of zero communication, I was doing so well. And then came the relapse. It came...
View ArticleRelapsing.
I have no longer ‘relapsed’. I am ‘relapsing’. I know I’m doing it. I also know it’s probably a very bad idea. I’m doing it anyway. The Director. He’s back, for a while it seems. He asked me to help...
View ArticleRecovery.
I’m such a dick. Like, legitimately, the biggest dick in the world. You’ll be happy to know I’ve come to my senses in a roundabout kinda way. The Director, seeing him, helping him with his business...
View ArticleHead: Fucked.
I’ve figured out what I’m good at in life. Bad decisions. Bad decisions and sex. I think those are my two talents. Perhaps writing too? I made a whopper of a bad decision yesterday. After blowing The...
View ArticleBecause At Christmas, You Tell The Truth.
I’ve watched Love Actually twice this week. I’d never seen it before, and it’s ended up becoming one of those movies I instantly fall in love with. And as I watching it, I realised a few things. So, in...
View ArticleLove Bites.
What is it about men and love bites? I don’t know if I told you but after my rough and ready ‘bonus night’ with The Director, I walked away with the mother of all hickeys on my neck. A big one,...
View ArticleI Can’t Let It Go
Right, I need to talk about it. I need to talk about this whole Director situation. I can’t make sense of it and I need to. Soon. There are two sides to every story. His side was apparently a little...
View ArticleUltimatums
My life seems to be full of ultimatums right now. Ultimatums and uncertainty. I hate it. The Dom and I were fighting. If The Director is in my life, The Dom won’t be. He also seems to think I won’t be...
View ArticleProject: Love Thyself
Well, hello peeps. I guess I’m back. I knew I’d be back. I love my blog. I’m not ready to let it go yet. I just need to start using it better. If it’s meant to be teaching me lessons, why aren’t I...
View ArticleMonday Morning Musings
I’ve had an epiphany, ladies and gents. I’ve realised something. Have you ever seen the movie, ‘Good Luck Chuck’? I’m the female version of Charlie Logan. You sleep with me and then you find your...
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